seeing everyone's blogs being so complicated recently especially as someone who thought my blogs were being seen solely by my 3 best friends and occasionally my penpal and a few others, and now i find a whole new world and audience of people. okay realistically no one is going to keep up w my blog, but it is just stressful seeing how much better people's sites are, but writing this to remind myself that this is all for fun and to document my life whenever i want and feel like talking.
it is fun !!!
i was preaching #bringbackblogging 4 a reason, because i love it. so that needs to be my main focus in this. i will improve my blog one day though... hopefully one day soon.
felt inspired to write this once hearing this:
(shout out eva p -- i need to watch glee)
https://open.spotify.com/track/0DuRaBhrsPbIyQfakgQrlI?si=8a0bcacbc3c34c8b
aka Landslide (feat. Gwyneth Paltrow) - Cover of Fleetwood Mac
wait let me drop the mp3... brb...
okay im back, omg that took ages, i used: https://too-clever-by-half.blogspot.com/2024/02/hosting-audio-on-drive.html to figure it out.
but omg today, okay might as well blog, i had a crazy day all while staying home. i was going to go to court, as i need to watch a case and take notes on it, for one of my classes, but omg had debilitating period cramps ughhhh and then guess what!!! i bled on my bed omg so annoying. and i played so much Clash Royale... i downloaded it yesterday and why is this the most awesome game ever and NO ADS and it's so funnnn. i also finished watching slushy noobz PR camping vlog, and happened to catch some of charles hsu's live, before i finished storage ughhh, let me insert here:
okay you dont have to watch it but it is there if you please
omg and i was dying over this tiktok... the emoji is so funny
Family😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
okay anyways rn we were just talking about people at uni and making friendships, especially as we (my friends and i) just graduated in november 2025 and so this semester, even though its the 2nd, is still our first year and we are new to things.
and guys i genuinely think im in the middle of this spectrum of normal and like "weird" stereotype people. when you hear that, as my friends, you might think, 'no you are normal' but even if i maybe present that way, i swear i'm not.
like i talk to people and its so obvious how im not a normal girl. i actually dont understand because like i can connect on a shallow level but people like fully are best friends and only talk about like silly fun things that are shallow and nothing else. NOTHING. if anyone has any more depth to them its like being agnostic, and okay i sound weird saying this, its like when people think that some people are NPCs, just because they appear shallow or make seemingly dumb decisions, but that is like very main character syndrome and dehumanising real people, but i swear sometimes it is true.
okay they are real, and not NPCs... but they sure as well might be, because at uni, i will conversate w these people and i swear all they do is... nothing? they drink $8 iced lattes and buy $150 tops online with $20 shipping and "this week was so hard" and it was the same as every other week and omg i dont understand these people. i mean i can talk to them and connect on some level, but i swear we are not compatible. with how many people i have interacted with by now, i shouldve connected deeper but idk!!!
like i will talk but i swear like i am being seen as weird and then i actually become awkward because the energy is so off. some people are so different to me that i feel like theyre taking my energy as if theyre leeches.
i swear i never usually struggle with making friends, and i guess i have made some friends, although with shallow relationship, mostly just because same classes, but maybe it will get better... i hope. at least i have my own friends aka the mandem 🥺🥺🥺😊😊😊😊😇😇😇.
PLS I LOVE CHARLES LIVES
ReplyDeleteWE NEED THAT EMOJI ON THE SERVER
ReplyDeletealso Brittana mentioned without shreya realising 🙏🙏🙏
ReplyDeleteWhen you said people take your energy like leeches - SO TRUE!!! I notice the same thing in uni especially, it's so weird. It's so much harder to make friends in uni because you're around people who were raised so differently and some of them are just so odd. It's so draining to try and make conversation with people who are so shallow. I agree they're like NPC's or they are living in a different reality or something. I guess we don't know everything about everyone but I swear some people have no substance in their lives lol.
ReplyDeleteRIGHT it really is a uni thing, i think. it definitely is because everyone has been raised so differently but i agree, its so draining to talk to some of them.
Deletedef true about seeing everyone else's blogs, but just remember, blogging is about expressing yourself, and only you can do that!
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